Lena

tidur ku ibarat duniaku yg baru. memberi harapan yg manis dan membuat aku terkesima dengan keindahannya. semakin aku di dalam, semakin aku hilang dalam keindahannya. dan semakin hari kau membuat tidurku menjadi dunia yg membuatku leka senantiasa. jagaku tidak sebegitu indah. hanya dipenuhi tipu helah dan dipenuhi sang bayu yg kurang menyenangkan. tatkala aku ingin menerokainya, datang pelbagai onar dan dugaan pantas menimpa. sehingga aku kadang kala kecewa. kadang kala berduka. tetapi sunyinya hanya aku dan tuhan dan alam sahaja yang tahu. lenaku menjadi permainanku. siangku makin ku penuhi dengannya. kadang kala bergilir kadang kala panjang. ingin ku selimuti diri dengan baldu. beralaskan keempukan kapas dan tilam lama. sambil ku coretkan kisah kisah misteri. yang kerap kali bermain dalam lenaku. kadang kala mereka kata aku ini gila. malah tidak kurang yang menghina dan mencerca. sedangkan bagiku lena lebih indah. kerana disulami cinta dan lagenda. kerana dipenuhi rahsia dan permainan minda. yang tidak pernah ku temui di dalam jaga.

Gone (unedited)

And i really watching

I really watching, you go from me

And i feel been teased

I feel been teased, when you’re gone

When you’re gone

The time you telling me

That we never be together

I know i will never

See you again

Sometimes, i see you at my side,

Laughing and smiling

I feel you in my heart

And feel how warm it be

I did missing you always

always

The time you holding my hand

You smile in tears

I can’t, i can’t stand it

The time you hug me

Your tears fall on me

I can’t, i can’t take it

Then you let my hand

Heading away

And never look back

Never coming back

And  i really watching

I really watching, you go from me

And i feel been teased

I feel been teased, when you’re gone

When you’re

The time you telling me

That we never be together

I know i will never

See you again

When it goes, too much

While it hard, too find

And gone so fast.

I can’t even stand

To catch the light

And i know

That just my only chance

i'm sorry for your lost

sir, even though you lost a diamonds just then, don;t worry you still got hundreds of diamonds that you raise with your heart and knowledge, which will be the one who made you proud, even before you scold us, we know that it was a scold from a father to his sons and daughters who wanted to change us to be a better person, even though we not really bloody-related, we knew that your kind and lovely soul were deeply diffuse into our heart, even we just been together only for a period of time, we had the best education which benefits us through our whole life, even all of us succeed, it does because of the all the contributions that you had made to us, even if any of us failed, none of us will stop and lost hope, because you had taught us that miracle do happen if we keep trying and striving for our success, and the people who made the miracle for us, we know that was you, my beloved 'father' thank you for everything. sir , even though, we are far apart, we do miss and love you....sincerely .....

times goes fast.. but how we decide to fill the empty space

sometimes...it is easy for us to get attracted to things...and it is easy for us to lost it...but to deal with the feeling...it's need more than just a courage...sometimes.. having fun is not enough... you need to suffer and feels the pain so that you can bear with the pain then...i wish i can bear with it but i don't know if i still van bear with it for the next day...in the future.. it something you cannot change but there are something that can be done...to ease the pain...until the life is taking me...i rest my case.